Life has been a crazy, hectic, mess of wonderfulness lately. What’s been happening?
Last time I posted I was on the fence about starting Weight Watchers again. Well, I did. I lost 19.7 pounds in the first 3 weeks. Yeah…but while that’s awesome. I’m not getting too terribly excited because 1. it was much of what I’d gained back and 2. I know I can’t keep that amount of weight loss up for the long haul. So YAY for losing but keep the expectations lower on how much I’ll lose consistently. I’m also aware that it may fluctuate a lot over the next few weeks because I’m moving soon and it’s a little stressful.
I went on vacation with the fella and his family. We went to Orlando for 5 days and enjoyed pool time with sunshine and warm temps, Epcot, Animal Kingdom, a gangster inspired dinner theater, La Nouba (a Cirque Du Soleil show), laughter, and a lot of delicious vacation food. Fish and chips, amazing steak, fish. And….I was introduced to jaffa tarts.
Seriously, these things are delicious. Orange flavored cake/cream covered in chocolate. I loved them so much that when I saw them on the menu at the Irish pub the next night, I had them again. Kinda ridiculous but I don’t care. They were amazing.
And now we’re back and in the thick of packing so we can move in 2 weeks. Well, less than 2 weeks. I’m slowly freaking out and then K is calming down the crazy until I freak out again. I have so much stuff. It’s major purge time. I’m getting rid of So. Much. Stuff. I’m definitely one of those people who gets anxious about moving/traveling and while I love it, I get really antsy and uncomfortable right before it happens and I just want it over. I don’t mind flying or the airport process per se, but the night before I fly, I’m just thinking, “Ok, I’d like to be on the other side of this now and skip the flying.” I’m not afraid of it, I just get anxious about the process I guess. I’m the same way with moving. But because moving is much larger than flying across country, I’m at the stage 2 weeks prior of just wanting to be moved in and beginning to unpack.
On top of all of these “big” events there’s a lot on the social calendar. K had a birthday this month, a close friend of our’s had a birthday this month that we’re eager to celebrate, we’ve had family events, and we’re expecting my family to come visit shortly after we move. Like I said, it’s been a crazy, hectic, mess of wonderfulness lately.
So…I’ve been doing a lot of thinking over the last month as I’ve been out of commission on working out with much cardio (and I’ll be honest, I’m not doing strength either). I’ve been wondering if perhaps it’s time I go back to Weight Watchers. I tried it for a while and it worked but I had issues with the fact that I felt like once I stopped using it, I’d gain the weight back. To me, counting points or calories only works while you’re counting. So when I stop…it doesn’t work. But here’s the thing: I can’t stop for a while. I mean like a long while. I have a significant amount of weight I
want need to lose. I don’t like the idea of dieting. I don’t like the idea of counting anything. But I keep thinking back to a conversation I had with my personal trainer right before I had to stop going to her. She was telling me how she keeps track of what she eats and she counts most days but not all. But she’s earned that right to slip off for a bit. She talked about how when she first started losing weight she had to be strict. She talked about how now she can loosen up but she also knows that this kind of “dieting” by counting calories is kinda forever if you want to keep yourself in check. So counting calories and using MyFitnessPal are kinda gonna be it if I want to lose and then maintain. But I think for me, I need to get back to basics a little and learn to get myself back under control with eating and maybe Weight Watchers is the way to go. It lets me have my convenience. It takes the guess work out for me. Maybe I only do it for a while and then switch back to MyFitnessPal once I feel more in control. But do I? Is that what will work? Or do I need to try harder with MyFitnessPal? Or maybe there’s some other “thing” I should try. What do you think? What has worked for you if you’ve ever felt out of control and in need of structure again?
I’ve been pretty frustrated with seeing changes in my body but not much of a change on the scale. I haven’t gained, which is good, and there are times when I manage to lose a pound here and there. But I’m hovering around the same number. Yet…I see changes in my body. I see and feel the difference in my strength and my endurance. So for May I’m going to work on not caring about the number on the scale. I stepped on the scale this morning and I don’t plan to step on again until June 1. I need to work past some mental blocks I’ve been struggling with lately. Not caring about my weight needs to happen. It’s kind of a weird thing because it’s the number every doctor cares about. Yet, it’s not good for me to focus on it because it sends me into a spiral of despair when it doesn’t move. That impacts how I workout and how I eat. Sometimes it’s for good and sometimes it backfires and I “give up.”
I took a break from strict tracking of food intake where I was tracking my calories in and out every now and then and then I took 5 days off completely. But Tuesday I started up with strict tracking again. I worked out hard with my trainer last night, I got in some intense cardio, and I ate clean all day. So May I’m working on breaking bad habits and I know for me it starts with my mental well-being. It’s time to break through that…and for good. This summer I’m working on that piece of me and instead of caring what weight I am, I’m going to work on making sure my body looks the way I want it to. I know it’ll take time but there’s no reason I can’t start seeing the progress on a daily basis.
Well, we made it to Friday! Thank goodness! Lots of exciting things going on in my life right now so I’m happy to have a weekend to enjoy my life…even though I might want to skip forward to Monday because I have something fun planned that evening. 🙂 Yeah, I like being vague. I do plan to do some baking this weekend and catch up on DVR and just generally enjoy life.
This morning I stepped on the scale and I’d gained a few pounds. I’m not surprised to be honest. I had a huge loss last week and I ate out a good bit this week so my eating was a little out of control and/or full of sodium. But I lost 1.2% body fat this week. I’m ok with the gain. It’s not as much as I expected nor could have been. I felt strong in my workouts this week and I enjoyed a couple of evenings where I didn’t work as hard. I took a new cardio class that left me feeling tired but so proud of my endurance. I left the gym last night after my training session and the owner of the gym said my deadlifts looked good. Yeah, I know, my deadlifts bring all the boys to the yard. 😉
I feel healthier and smarter and more committed. I’m not letting the gain set me back. I’ll enjoy life and I’ll do better next week. I will say I’m a little concerned with how a bunch of upcoming travel is going to throw a wrench in my progress but I’ll deal with that as it happens..no sense getting worked up about it now and losing the focus of the moment I’m in right now.
I hope you all have great weekends!
So before I get into my Fitness Friday…I’m sharing what happened this morning when I stepped on the scale at 5:30am.
Yeah, I lost 6.3 pounds this week. WHAT?! I have no idea what I did. I’ve never had this happen. That’s like Biggest Loser style to me. Of course, no one was awake for me to brag to. So when I saw my trainer at the gym this morning, I attacked her. She was super excited but even she said, “Wait, 6.3 pounds this week?” Yeah. She thinks it’s likely because of
1. I’m in week 5 and my body is rockin’ and rollin’ and figured out what I want it to do.
2. I’ve been really good about my food this week in terms of calories. I also ate out less, which means my sodium was down. I was also watching my sodium intake a fair bit this week, too.
3. I’m getting more efficient in my workouts.
So speaking of my workouts. They’ve been good lately. My training sessions I’ve left feeling strong. I feel like even when I’m not being watched, my form is improving. I started using TRX bands this week to do ab rollouts. I’m going to have to work on those but today was better than Monday so that’s something. My upper body (particularly triceps) still fatigue pretty easily but it’ll get better. I actually skipped working out Wednesday and Thursday this week. It’s been a long time since I’ve done that but it felt good. I was able to watch my food intake and not feel too deprived. I think it actually did my muscles some good to rest a little. However, I’m super excited to see that my gym has switched up the class offerings a little. They’re adding a 3 cardio classes throughout the week, and my kickboxing class is switching to a “Resistaball Workout” for 30 minutes and a Cardio Circuit for 30 minutes. The resistaball will be with stability balls. I’m excited to try those out on Tuesday. Some of the cardio classes are happening when I normally train, so I might actually consider a 5:30am class. Oh the horrors! It has it’s pros and cons so we shall see if I can actually make myself get up for that.
Happy (Fitness) Friday!
I had a physical yesterday. My first one in probably about 4 years. I knew going in I would be told I was overweight. What I wasn’t expecting? To be completely dismissed as lazy and unmotivated. It was a new doctor for me and I’m sure she hears lies about how much a person works out and eats well frequently. But I wasn’t lying. I was honest about how I ate and I how I struggle. I was also honest about my working out and dedication. I left the office feeling defeated by just 20 minutes with her. I won’t get into the details because they’re still painful but the important part is that instead of going home and continuing to feel defeated I dug deep and used that as motivation. I pulled it together and hightailed it to the gym. I made it there just in time for Kickboxing and proceeded to kick that doctor’s face for a hour. Then I stayed on for Barre Fusion. There was a sub and it felt less like Barre and more like yoga/pilates. I was frustrated by it because my wrists couldn’t handle all the down dog and planks we did for such long periods. But I took breaks when I needed to and then got right back to it.
Then this morning I was up early for personal training. I dug deep there, too. We focused on my lower body since I’m meeting with her tomorrow evening as well. We discovered my left leg is noticeably weaker than my right. I was actually surprised by this because I have issues with my right knee but my guess is I let my right leg lead to compensate for that and it’s made it stronger. I’m tired but I feel good that I’ve worked out already today. I’m hoping to not be so sore I can’t make it to Zumba toning tonight. But we’ll see!
It’s Saturday morning and I have a full and fun day planned. So I don’t want to spend much time blogging BUT I had to get on here to share my good news. I lost 2 pounds this week, which means I’ve lost a total of 25 pounds this year!
I lost 23 pounds through June and then I gained 4 back between then and September. Since September I’ve lost 6 pounds! Here’s to being back on track!
Happy Saturday/Weekend! And stay safe out there if you’re in the path of this monster storm coming to the northeast!
So if you follow me on Twitter then you may have an inkling of an idea as to what the title of this post refers to. If you don’t follow me, here’s the tweet I posted Sunday:
Yes, this week I hit a 20 pound weight loss! My first goal is 30 pounds so I’m very close. The next goal will be a total of 50. A few weeks ago I was have a hard time staying focused on this weight loss progress because it seems so small in the face of how much there is to lose. So I took a Pinterest idea and made my own little visual reminder.
I see this every morning and evening. It’s a good reminder and I certainly don’t want to move the stones from “lost” to the “to lose” jar again!
The other thing I notice is that I’m seeing the small changes in my body. I can tell I’m losing weight in my face, my hands, and the front of my legs. I know it may sound a little strange to say the front of my legs but I’ve always had pretty defined legs (my inner thighs are the only place you can grab fat) so I’ve never noticed it honestly but the front part of my legs feel different. It’s hard to explain but I’m sure if you’ve ever lost a significant amount of weight you can relate to that feeling.
So my What I Love Wednesday is a toot my own horn topic but I’m proud of myself and getting this knowledge and news out there is one way to keep me on track.
What do you love this Wednesday?